A very long song

What perfect timing for my transformation on the week of lent. Making a stand and taking in my personal responsibilities as a good human. Enough said. Really who cares what I'm trying to change about myself. After all, as far as I'm concerned, evolving is just a normal phase in a humans journey through this long song of life.

I've always been a robber. Not in the traditional sense of the word. But with music, lyrics, and literature I seem to pick up a few suggestions, catch phrases, titles, passages and ideas along the way and try to incorporate them as something I can relate to and share.

First, it was learned that a good man (who happens to be my uncle and godfather) is going to die very soon. Now, this isn't the typical death sentence. Bottom line is that his blood transfusions will not be covered through his insurance. After all, when the doctors opened his stomach up awhile back and couldn't find the problem his story just about ended. This hit me pretty hard because he is left to die almost like a dog. When I paid a visit with another uncle, he seemed strong and in good spirits. He was going to get the news from the doctor later that day that the blood transfusion were going to stop. I would not count Uncle George out, but after almost 1 year to the day since his wife passed suddenly, I seem to be unsure. I just hope I can find the strength to visit the man before... I'm sure I will.

Second, the family dog here is going to die of cancer. Marilyn, our golden retrieve-Australian Shepard mix has been with us for almost 12 years started coughing like she had a lung infection. Got anti-bio tics from the first vet that blindly diagnosed her condition. But, after a week of not kicking the cough we took her in again. This time we took x-rays and found out that her lungs were blackened with cancer. It had spread from somewhere else in her body the vet said. I really felt like hugging this guy for being honest and consoling. What else can one do for an elderly dog? What else can one do for a dying uncle?

Life does seem to be a long song. Of course, I'm am taking a rip from a Jethro Tull song title. It really seems fitting though. Once again I'm taking my life back and taking a stand. I need to be there for the ones most precious to me. I also am on the never ending journey to constantly enjoy the time here, bottom line! For me, it will have to be all about running, biking, practicing, writing, feverish reading, loving and most of forgiving. Forgiving not only others but myself.